Internal Conflict Needs Treatment

I experience the pain of loss on a daily basis

Made up in my head and I can't take it

Formulated states of depression that I can't help

Something's stuck in me like tight ass belt

The pain and fear of losing someone that knows me for me

If I give myself to you and I'm rejected, am I free?

Freedom is to see and be seen, if I see that I'm seen like a movie scene when you spit at the TV and curse out the man

The man can't be if he isn't seen and if he's seen he can't be 

I'm just trying to be me for me

I cant compromise me for you to love me or to hate me

I can't see the right path, so I follow my heart

The heart isn't enough when it causes pain in part

Am I capable of being smart?

Smart enough to thrive as an individual and help others too 

That's my dream but it seems I don't know what to do

Maybe my dream is a thing unachievable 

Mistakes consistently pile 

When is it me?

How do you cope with a failure when others wish you pain?

It's new to me

It doesn't matter what I say, I know that of course

Once the course is set the ship sails itself, no matter how blind the captain is

A vigilant overpreparedness blinds the captain from recognizing the reality of the storm 

Yell, shout, scream

Ignorance is pain

Nobody knows it all

Let go of the fear

I'm not here to hurt you 

Have a little more trust

I'm blinded by the temptation of ease 

What are you blind to?

Reflect kindly, understand with maturity

Accept yourself and accept others

Words do matter

I lead myself understandably 

Heed my words undeniably 

Recognize their origin strictly

Understand their meanings haphazardly 

But try

That's all I ask

Because one day it will matter

One day the thoughts will win and you'll realize the person you've always been

It's never too early to start

We're only people

Engage in art

Develop your understanding of yourself and recognize pain as a part of life

Pain requires management

Management requires confrontation 

With yourself and the overzealous people you're surrounded by

You won't always be the person you are right now

Reflect on that

Internal conflict needs treatment