ignorance is not bliss
I walk around with a frown My head down, eyes on the screen Mind on other things than what's in front of me Distracted, mind racing in silence Unspoken fear of violence threatening me under my eyelids Can't find calmness, not my strongest when I want to be Mean words compound, unaware of their profound effect Jokes which provoke reactions Lacking intention and direction Regression contradicts promised progression These thoughts remind me of my therapy sessions Which seem to go completely unmentioned You see, staring mindlessly leads to these becoming top of mind I can only control my own behavior, what does that mean? The intrusive thoughts grow stronger Becoming reality; life becoming tragedy My queen doesn't seee it, it seems, I can't explain what I think in a moment What do I fail to see in her: her depression, her fear? My dear, you and I both can't live like this That brings me solace to know we're in this toge...