mind, heart, and soul

I gave my heart to the people

They said it wasn't enough

I proposed that I give them my mind too

They told me it's not something they trust

I shared with them my soul, the most precious I own

They couldn't be bothered to say no

I racked my brain and looked into my soul and felt what my heart had to feel

I looked back on my past

Where do my issues contrast with the glory of our existence?

Now there's so much resistance

Nothing can fix this

I need to accept and move forward

But I'm frozen by the coldness of ones I once loved

And I'm too lazy to knit my own gloves

I admit to you my heart moves like a whore

But your warmth has filled me before

A fire calming my war,

Your strength helped me reform

But a few moments later I realized the danger 

And felt scared of what we had shared

My mind often doubted you cared

I've been having these nightmares

And you're at the center of them

A dozen disappointed faces

Looking away and turning to grin

I awake to a feeling so grim

I'm aware that my soul's like the tide 

My whole world despises what's inside

It doesn't matter that I'm trying to try

I wonder if integrity's a lie

I think about when I might die

If it doesn't matter then what does it matter if I go in time, or within the hour 

I don't mean to worry, I'm in no hurry, but my mind, heart, and soul have gone sour