Life's Events
In pain when I think of what they say
Moving slow, hoping to regain control
What I feel, the cuts have been hard to heal
Life's events feel like they're catching up to me
Lowest that I've ever been, blame it all on them
Lost some friends, life's been down since then
Big regrets, they direct my every thought
I'm not enough, how do I cope with this?
Take it like a champ, shit I'll pay my dues
When I owe, hope you know that I'll stay true
I take my time, need to know just what to say
I know I'm lost, so I can't ask you to stay
I'll find my way but I can't erase the pain
I feel like it's catching up to me
I'm not so smart, tore myself apart
Loved from afar, did too much and crashed my car
Tryna find my way, broken GPS
Poor GPA, college uneducated
Meditated, thought I found my answers
But I wasn't dedicated
Breathe real deep, I'm fake elated
All of this, I never could've calculated
Back when I was far less jaded
Back when I didn't think life was fated
Back when I had some faith in myself
I dreamt of a happiness wealth
Or a bottomless well of possibilities
Now I'm blinded from the happier scenes
I feel like it's catching up to me
Try to love myself, represent that shit
Know it's right but it's not the right fit
Something's wrong, I can't ignore it
Medicated, did just what the doctors said
Emotions numbed, can't say where I'm from
Love is gone, a newfound sense of lust
A woman's trust, dusting off my ego's rust
A new man brushed, got my nose scrunched and my cheeks all blushed thinkin bout us and lunch
A day goes by and I lose my fly
I can't even think about texting you
Even though I want to do everything with you
Can someone please hand me a tissue
I could cry I'm so lonely
I should die I'm so phoney
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