misery

I realize that we can die on any day, at any time

My awakened brain is fearful of most common things

Look deep in your eyes, I don't have much to say 

I only feel that someday I'll have to pay

I'll make that today, feel the shame with hopes to enact change

Carving my lane, wonder if I'm sane

Talentless, my soul's a deep abyss

Deeply flawed, ashamed to be the man I is

Am I wrong? Don't have one I can call

To ask this, even if I did, trust I lack so I'd dismiss

My artistic, am I just a narcissist? 

Writing wrongs, looking to find some bliss

Is it shit or do I have some clever wit?

That I can hold with pride, maybe make this life worthwhile 

You cheer me on but something's clearly wrong 

I need critique, please someone come set me free

The compliments are killing me, knowing I'm in misery

Though I know I hide behind my misery