revealing

I can't give everything to everyone, so I give a little bit to everybody, and I reveal myself to nobody

It's so sunny where the grass is greener, and green money comes to make the creases cleaner

I've lost my mind, I jot the plot with no attempt to refine

If you're lost, you're lost

I'm lost in this hedge where bets say my bed is made 

I'll trade my watch for a little more shade, and a few more boundaries

I run from the cold and the heat jumps at me

Repeat with the shivers and the dreams of summer 

Sometime I'll take control of this life, trust me

The Earth works on its own and it's my job to be numb when I want to become immune to extreme weather

Create this tether to my secular soul, bind it in love and mature it with truth 

It's uncouth to assume it'll take a day or two

I need time, patience, and love

This is my rigid art

Painting pictures of my inner world, it tears me apart to know I'll have to restart because there's so much I don't see every time I try

And I'm no closer to fully surviving 

And this pressure in my head is thriving

And my heart feels the same

My soul looks for the blame 

My stomach digests the pain 

And I'm distilled into an uneven picture frame

And this is my shame, that I tried and I did, but my mind decided it wasn't it 

It didn't feel right, I see

It lacked congruency 

Again, what is me?

Again, who is me? 

Again, what are we? 

Again, what do I do? 

Let me sleep again

Tomorrow glimpse the truth 

Perhaps 

I hope

Fraught smile 

Fraught hope

My slope

Quick to fall

Into you

And lose it all

It's not romance

Not at all

It's like a dance

A black Swan