Return to Hell

The feeling's returned

I feel like a dog

Half paid attention to, half laughed off

Ignored for better things

Words become a waste

Self-compassion lost

to your wiltering grace

Friends moved on,

on to better talks

Leaving me again

in my silent box 

Self-pity clangs

Depression reigns

Anxiety a defense

of your vicious fangs

My heart loudly bangs

Cracks reappear

alongside the scars

of permanent fear

I have lost my voice 

The world is upside down

One minute I'm free

The next I'm to drown

My burning crown

Sat atop my heart

I'd let it go

If I were smart