DISCONNECTED

The only truth is right now

Hope tries creating memories of events yet to be

It's comforting

I jump so far ahead of every word I want to write

I'm tugged into the past, attempting to find pain unprocessed 

Ignoring my disintegrating core 

Because all I care about are your eyes

The opinions of me they hold

The feeling of my body is not enough to keep me here

Especially when it wants to be there, with you

My mind takes over

Don't be overly critical

I forgot that I'm alive for a moment

For a moment again

Until I can hardly remember

But you ground me

You make me feel here

When you're near

If only you were real

Loneliness loves trickery

Self-deception, most of all

Until I no longer remember to feel

Because it's easier not to