the hole

I'm exhausted. I want to give many reasons as to why that might be. I can break it down simply to being physically lacking. Hydration, sustenance, sleep, and exercise. I think I'm lonely. My conversations with family never go well. I only really feel like I can talk to one person. It does feel physical. It's always felt this way. Like I can't quite wake up. Like I feel like a zombie. Emotional weight or physical lack? Both? Is that a false binary?