scared

I feel alone, as I was before

I lose the feeling of my feet on the floor

I look through the sliver of my half-open door

And I regret ever thinking you could be a chore

A mask that I wore when my fear took control

When the judges and cops were on incessant patrol 

It strikes in my core and digs out a hole

That keeps me from feeling your heart in my soul

I know that you care, I feel your pain well

You're not but I know you fear you're a shell

All the feelings within that stifle and compel

Are the basis of pride that I'd like to unveil 

Maybe I'm writing without an aim

With words that rhyme to polish my name

Or maybe I'm expressing that I'd like to say

You're with me always, every single day